Dreams

March 17, 2009

Dreams

The past few nights, well actually ever since Sir started having the training update talks with me, i have been having some really vivid dreams. And while some of them are just nonsense and don't mean much, there has been a recurring theme to my dreams of the past few nights, so i thought i'd share it here....

In my dreams i am serving a Domme. Sometimes it is someone i don't know, but usually it is either someone from the chatroom (but i am with them in real-life) or it is Ma'am who i have met before and who will be doing my Domme training in real-life when Sir thinks i am ready. In the dreams i am always serving in a sexual sense or a submissive sense - i.e. giving Her a foot rub, or licking at her bottom - and i am always both enjoying it and feeling relaxed and confident about what i'm doing. And i always wake up from the dreams with a big smile on my face, feeling aroused. Infact Sir woke me up last night because apparently i was rubbing myself against His leg as i was having the dream *blush*.

The reason i wanted to post about this is because the way i am acting and feeling in the dreams is completely different to how i really feel about serving a Domme. Even online i am not at all confident about being with a Domme and i am really nervous abput progressing in the types of things i am expected to do when serving one. And when i think about the training i will be doing with Ma'am in real-life i get even more nervous and unsure of myself, even though i have no specific details about what will be involved yet. But i think it is a good thing that subconsciously i seem to believe that i can do it, and do it well, and enjoy myself whilst doing it. And i also think it is a good thing that i am dreaming about this topic so much recently because maybe it shows that i am ready to start forging ahead with this aspect of my training? At any rate i'm going to take the next few steps with Dommes online and see how i go.....