What's important

November 15, 2009

What's important

Being ill with the swine flu this week has really brought home to me what is important in my life - Sir and flame, but most of all Poppy. On the doctor's advice, i wasn't allowed to be in the same room as her all week, and definitely no cuddles or kisses because she wasn't supposed to get nearer than 3 metres while i was ill. So the most i could do was wave to her in the doorway when Sir brought her in to say 'goodnight' to me, and i found it very very upsetting.

Yesterday because i was feeling better i was allowed to spend time with Poppy again, and it was soooooo nice just to hold her and snuggle her and breathe in her sweet little girl smell, and see her beautiful little smile, listen to her happy giggles, and feel the weight of her on my lap or snuggling against me, and it was just great. i spent ages just watching her play, and singing songs with her, and she was obviously happy to spend time with me too, so we were both happy girlies.

And it's also made me realise how much i'm looking forward to having another baby, to holding a new little one and getting to know him/her, to smelling that unique new baby smell, and watching as he/she grows and plays with Poppy and they become great friends and siblings. So i'm really excited about getting pregnant again, and all that that entails, but for this weekend i'm just going to concentrate on enjoying Sir and Poppy and being grateful for the family i've got :)