March 28, 2010
formspring.me #14
Hello Libby. Did you worry, when you started out, that you would become more and more extreme in what you would do in play sessions? I know that trust is key, but were you worried that what you craved, as a masochist, would become too much?
Hi, this is a really interesting question and one i thought a lot about myself in the beginning because i wondered this too. i was worried that i would have to keep 'upping the ante' as it were to get the same thrill out of play (a bit like how drug users have to take more and more of the drug to get high as their body becomes used to it). i even wrote a post on this question: http://libbysub.blogspot.com/2007/08/extremes.html
But 4 years on from first 'playing' with Sir i can say that no, for me i don't have a need for things to keep getting more and more extreme just to satisfy my masochistic cravings. Maybe i'm more of a slave than a masochist, and a true masochist would need to keep pushing the boundaries of what they do just to remain sated by it? But not me, i have definitely developed and evolved a lot since i first started and what i do now is more extreme than back then, and many of the things that Sir has introduced me to initially i was afraid of and thought i could never do, but i think that once you get past that exploration phase you reach a kind of plateau where you discover what your needs and boundaries are pain-wise, and they remain pretty much constant. Or they do in my case anyway! And my desire/craving for pain is still able to be satisfied by Sir and hasn't noticeably increased (actually it decreases quite a lot when i am pregnant or recovering from giving birth).
Hope that answers the question!
But 4 years on from first 'playing' with Sir i can say that no, for me i don't have a need for things to keep getting more and more extreme just to satisfy my masochistic cravings. Maybe i'm more of a slave than a masochist, and a true masochist would need to keep pushing the boundaries of what they do just to remain sated by it? But not me, i have definitely developed and evolved a lot since i first started and what i do now is more extreme than back then, and many of the things that Sir has introduced me to initially i was afraid of and thought i could never do, but i think that once you get past that exploration phase you reach a kind of plateau where you discover what your needs and boundaries are pain-wise, and they remain pretty much constant. Or they do in my case anyway! And my desire/craving for pain is still able to be satisfied by Sir and hasn't noticeably increased (actually it decreases quite a lot when i am pregnant or recovering from giving birth).
Hope that answers the question!
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