my little ray of sunshine

April 25, 2010

my little ray of sunshine

Today i was feeling pretty down and tearful on and off throughout the morning, mainly due to my worries about William, but i was looking forward to a lovely picnic lunch with Sir and Poppy and then spending the afternoon walking through the woods and sitting by the lakes enjoying the sunshine.

Except when we came out of the art class we realised it was raining and really not looking like good picnic weather, so we explained this to Poppy when we went to collect her from my sister's. Unfortunately this news did not go down too well, and Poppy got very pouty and kept repeating "Mama says picnic!", looking very indignant that i was going back on my word. i tried to explain to her that we couldn't go because of the rain, but she just asked "why rains?" and that was too difficult to explain to her, so it was looking like a no-win situation. Then i told her that if we sat in the rain maybe i would get poorly and that would make William and Finn poorly too, and she toddled over to me kissed my tummy and whispered very sweetly "hello Finn, hello Willum", and then just as i thought she was accepting the situation she yelled into my tummy "MAMA SAYS PICNIC!" and put her ear up to my belly apparently to hear their response. It was so funny i just stood there laughing, and then Sir suddenly said "I think William has an idea" and He listened at my tummy and then said "yep, William's told me where we can go" and we all got into the car ready to go.

It turned out that Sir had remembered a bird sanctuary that has big hides (wooden shed things to watch the birds from) and we spread our picnic rug out in one of these and ate our lunch in the dry, listening to the rain outside and watching the birds on the water through the viewing windows. Poppy was delighted at the combination of picnic and birdies, and when the rain stopped in time for us to finish our lunch and stroll round the rest of the reserve it made for a perfect afternoon and Poppy was galloping along with happiness. Later she came up to me and whispered into my belly "good boy Willum", presumably for 'thinking' of where to hold our picnic and it just made my day and lifted away all the grumpiness inside me. Whatever happens with William, he will have a great sister and parents who love him very much and we will do our very best for all of our children. And Poppy really is my little ray of sunshine :)