March 17, 2011
A scary prospect
Part of me wants to do it because i found the play party we went to before really interesting and we might meet some cool new people, and i have been wanting my training to step up a notch so it seems unfair to complain when Sir makes the effort to do so. But on the other hand i am very nervous about being used as a model as i don't know how much i would be able or expected to take and i don't want to let the man down by being a bad model for His products. Also there is the whole issue of being away from the babies and who will look after them and what happens if William's not well and how would they feed as neither of them take a bottle at the moment. And would i be too worried about the twins to be able to perform my role at the party properly? But on the other hand it's a great opportunity and a chance to have some 'slave' time and i need to start leaving the boys with other people to give me a break anyway....
So we'll see. What do you guys think? Too much too soon, or a chance not to be missed? Sir is letting me decide on this one and i need to give Him my answer this weekend.
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Maybe you could ask for it to be a short time at the play party - in case you need to get home to the kids. That way you get some time out with you Sir but don't have to worry about leaving the kids alone for a long time all of a sudden. You could see if there's another sub who'd like to be a model for the second half of the night too.
10:16 AMBut generally, I think it's a good idea to go. Everyone needs a night off now and then and, as you said, at some point you will have to learn to let someone else look after the twins for short periods - this could be a good practice for you.
Oh Libby, A difficult one...what an opportunity, but I do know what you mean by "too much too soon"...could you suggest you take along some other sub too...and then if it becomes too much or you become overwhelmed there is an opt out without letting anyone down?
12:04 PMHSxx
End of may is still 2 months away so the boys still have time to grow some more and become less dependent on you. I say go for it Libby. Its a wonderful chance for you and Sir.
3:06 AMI recently demo subbed for the first time (not for products, but for a workshop) and if you have any ounce of exhibitionist in you, I think you'll be pleasantly surprised.
4:12 PMThis is also a good moment to build upon pre-existing trust, as your Sir will be in charge of prospective buyers as they test products on your flesh. There is something comforting for me, at least, in relinquishing my control and concerns about others to my Mistress.
Can you talk to the sub who usually attends? I'm sure she can give you a pretty good idea of what to expect in terms of how much you will need to handle.
thanks for the advice everyone. i've decided i'm going to go for it because it's too good an opportunity to turn down. But i will be asking if we can only stay for part of the time so i don't have to leave the twins for too long. And hopefully that way i can feed them before and after without any disruption to their schedule. Oooooh how exciting (and also a bit scary)!
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