Scening

April 20, 2011

Scening

i'm going to use this post to write about two different things: one is the training session i had with Sir Mark at the weekend and the other is how i'm hoping to get back into scening in the online chatroom i visit. So here goes...

i expected Sunday's training to be more of the humiliation in the dungeon, possibly with someone else watching, type thing as we have been doing for the past few weeks, but it turned out that Sir Mark had slightly different plans this time. i'm still not sure whether He is setting the agenda, whether Sir is asking Him to work on specific things or giving Him ideas for sessions, or a combination of the two. But i do know that this particular session worked on several of my current training needs, namely: humiliation, exhibitionism and outdoor use/play.

i was told to go into the garden (naked with just a clit clip on) and then i was inspected there by Sir Mark (which involves me getting into very vulnerable and revealing positions). Then He had me remove the clit clip, spread my legs and stand still for a bottom flogging (and a bit of a pussy flogging) right there in the middle of the garden! i have never really done any kind of scene outside before and i was so scared of being seen (or heard as it seemed like the flogger was making a lot of noise), but in reality that's not going to happen because our garden is surrounded by a high wall on the other side of which is just fields, so unless someone actually came into the house and walked through to the garden they wouldn't be able to see me. But it just felt very very naughty and risky being naked and flogged outside! That's all the session was this week, but i suspect that Sir Mark is going to push me further and further in this during the weeks to come.

Then in the chatroom last night i got talking to one of the Doms there who is my friend and we chatted about my recent 'acceptance' post and what could be done to make me feel more at home in the chatroom like i used to. It was decided that i should try to scene in channel more (i hardly scene at all now, and only with very select Doms in pm when i do) and also try to start playing with the other girls again too. We both think that since being pregnant i have come to be seen as 'off-limits' by most people in the room, as someone to chat to only, as something of a room 'mascot' rather than a sub who is available to play and scene with, so i need to take steps to alter that perception of me. So last night there was a brief scene with B, in channel, in front of everyone, and i also altered my description to make it known that i am trying to 'revive my scening side'. Of course i'll steer well clear of the HNGs (horny net geeks) and other Doms i just don't gel with, but other than that i'm looking forward to some action in channel beyond my current levels of polite chat, gentle banter and casual flirting, which i hope will help with my somewhat neglected submissive side too. So watch this space!