Words and terms

April 30, 2011

Words and terms

One of my rules is that i should not use bad language, which i am actually quite glad about because i hate swearing and certain words just make me cringe inside. On the chatrooms i visit i often hear others using words which i would never use myself, and sometimes the Doms call me by certain terms which i don't feel apply to me.

Example of such words and terms are: fuck, slut, bitch, whore, cunt. i find all of these words offensive and see no reason for them to be used, except i guess if someone is trying to make the other person feel worthless or to express a strong (negative) feeling about someone or something. This is part of the reason i don't use these words myself and don't appreciate them being used towards me, because i view them in a negative light so to have them used to describe me makes me think that person must have a negative opinion of me or want to hurt me emotionally. i know that some people find it hot to "talk dirty" or to be called such terms and names, but i'm not one of them.

However as part of my humiliation training both online and in real-life, i am finding that i am required to use words and terms which otherwise i would avoid, and that these terms are being applied to me. So far i have been able to deal with it, but i wouldn't exactly say i feel comfortable about it and i still cringe everytime i hear or have to say one of these terms. i guess that might make me seem quite pathetic, but then words are a powerful thing and certain words just make me feel worthless and not in a good way. But i'll persevere and see if something good can come of these words and terms, perhaps make me into a better and stronger slave if i am able to accept them?