Single-tails revisited

September 24, 2011

Single-tails revisited

Some of you might already be aware that single-tail whips are a limit for me, after an incident that occured when Sir tried one out on me. Actually, not really an 'incident', just my extreme reaction to it for no apparent reason.

Since then Sir has stayed away from using any type of single-tail whip on me, though i know He has kept practising using them in order to maintain His skill level with them (which is pretty darn accurate, because i've watched Him a couple of times).

Then on our collaring anniversary celebration, once all 3 kidlets were out of the house and being looked after elsewhere, Sir took me out to the barn/dungeon and started a pretty intense session with me involving lots of bondage, torment with various implements, teasing, flogging, use of the hitachi, etc. until i was in a very floaty, meak, submissive, compliant state. And then He brought the single-tail out. i remember looking at it and not feeling at all nervous, more curious: "oh, look what He's got now" and standing there waiting for my fate. So Sir started using it on my titties because that's usually where i like to receive 'sting' rather than thud and i was absolutely fine with it. It did hurt a lot and it's a difficult pain to get on top of because it's a biting pain almost like a bee sting and the speed of it means it's hard to process one hit before the next one comes in a different place, but they're all close to each other. After some work on my titties Sir moved onto my thighs and made me yelp and jump alot, but i was securely bound to the St Andrews Cross, so couldn't go anywhere.

Things get really fuzzy in my mind after that point, but i do know that i was able to manage the experience of being whipped and not go into a panicky state like last time. i was focused on dealing with the pain and didn't get any of those feelings of worthlessness like before. i remember Sir finishing with the whip and coming over to me, stroking my body and telling me what a good girl i'd been, then He untied me and bent me over the spanking bench and took me from behind, and then i remember being back inside the house, snuggled on the sofa with Sir while He put some ointment on my whip marks.

i carried those marks round proudly for the best part of 2 weeks and felt really pleased with myself whenever i caught sight of them. It feels like i have managed to push through whatever difficulties i once had with single-tail whips and i am confident that i can have them used on me now without panicking. But to be safe Sir has decided that for the moment only He will use them, i am not to even consent to having one used on me in an online scene, and He will judge the 'right' moment carefully and keep an extra close eye on my reactions.

So it seems that some limits can be overcome, with time, patience and care. i don't even know why i had such a problem with whips in the first place and i guess i may never know but i'm glad that i've been able to move on in my submission and feel like it was a great collaring present to give to my Sir :)